Distance
Distance - it was like a huge gaping hole between them that could never be breached. He because he could not reach her, and she because she would not reach out.
It was something that would remain between them forever. That icy dark gap between them - something intangible and yet so very real.
He could almost feel it, taste it - in her speech, actions and every little thing she did, and it frustrated him so much that that gap was there.
That damned distance was there and he could never get her, hold her and be allowed to love her.
And that was why when he stumbled onto the deck and saw her reaching out to the stars, leaning against the metal rail with dried tear tracks on her cheeks, he could only hide in the corner and watch her.
Always watch her and make sure she would never fall too far such that she would be unable to climb back up again.
As he always did.
As he always will do.
She stepped back from the rail, the wistfulness she always portrayed no longer present in her features and he melted into the deep shadows.
She would never know that he was always watching her.
Watching her as she went back into her dorm, he knew, with a certainty - that the next day he saw her, the tear tracks would have been long gone and that the shadows of darkness would have faded, only to surface again at night.
He wondered if she ever knew of the distance between them, large and gaping, and the fact that he would never be able to breach it - not alone.
He would probably never know.
(c) blade 2006
Hm...a sleep deprived brain always ends up with me coming up with such twisted, complicated stuff. Rather dark material though, don'cha think?
1 Comments:
I think he knows it, as usual. And she knows it as well.
The distance may not exist initially, it s he and she then create it. U can say that none of them does it purposely. Sometimes they call this “God s arrangement” or “God s purpose”, coz God thinks that before two people can actually be together, they need to go through a lot of things, distance, for instance. It can be geographically or mentally, yet, this distance thing can usually make the life story more touching and beautiful.
Again, I really love what u wrote up here, enjoy reading it. Thanks
I have noticed that u have some very strong ability to catch and depict those very little feelings of the characters, how they love, how they struggle or how they fight against themselves. These feels r something u may not be able to tell, but can really hit the bottom of ur heart..
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huanghuo the painter, at 6:27 AM
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